Agonizing Pain For Over a Year

by Don H
(Mobile, AL, USA)

I've been having abdominal pain, mostly the left side and middle, since March 12, 2011.


It's not going away, and only seems to be getting worse. I don't have insurance, no way to get anywhere, and maybe $5.00 to my name.

I've tried the hospital, but I was seen by the same doctor twice, and both times he said it was constipation (although nothing showed up in the x-ray which would give any indication that there is a blockage; he even admitted as much) and refused to do further diagnostics.

The health department told me I should get a CT scan because x-rays are not intended to observe soft tissues. They told me the hospital would probably be the only way I could afford that.

No such luck. Each time the hospital did an x-ray, and sent me home with a $250 bottle of magnesium citrate. It's a little over a dollar at Wal-Mart. Now I owe the hospital around $500, and they didn't do a thing for me.


This past week, I've been waking up to panic attacks due to the intensity of the pain. I've applied for disability three times, this last time with a lawyer, and I've been denied three times. I don't have the strength or will to fight anymore. Going to the hospital, going to the health department, all for nothing. I don't go out at all anymore, and I often feel like death is the only way out. I just can't continue living in torment every single day. Absolute hopelessness and despair. I feel like if I can't help myself, no one will, so I attended college for three semesters. It was very difficult to get there, and I had to get up at 4:00am just to get to the bus stop. I thought that surely if I made straight A's, someone would think I'm worth helping. Wrong again. I never attended a day of school that I wasn't sick, often throwing up in the bathroom between classes. Emptying my stomach of all contents seems to help, and I can stomach only one meal per day.

Just after the hearing, I started having migraine headaches again...I don't know if it's related to the abdominal pain or not. It could be caused by toothaches, because all of the throwing up has caused cavities right at the gumline. It's like I haven't seen a new dawn since March 12, 2011, and I'm still waiting for this nightmarish day to end.

I used to pray that I'd get better, then I prayed that my heart would cease beating as I slept, now I don't pray at all. I'm just alone. My family acts like I'm not even there, as if I'm a ghost, doubled over clutching my stomach, ice pack on the back of my neck, moaning in agony. I live with my grandparents, and my grandfather is the one who has to take me to the doctor. He's 90 years old and not exactly in peak condition himself, but he's in much better shape than I am physically.


As a child I was abused daily. I suffered through that, just to end up in an even worse situation. It just doesn't seem right, when I see everyone else around me smiling and laughing. My friend applied for disability and got it, though he uses the money to go out and party, drink, and buy things he WANTS, not things he NEEDS. He just bought a new guitar, isn't that great? I asked the judge to please send me to a specialist, if nothing else. No such luck. It seems I'm out of options; the judge basically consigned me to death, or even worse, a life of torment.

Lately I've been too sick to even let him come by, the only friend that still cares enough to visit the shadow of his former friend.
There must be some other way out of this situation. My extended family (uncles, aunts) aren't going to help because they think it's "God's will." It's like living in a third world country, or the twilight zone.

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May 10, 2016
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To don h
by: Anonymous

Hi I had the same pain for over a year I was told I wasn't making enough hydrocolic acid to digest my food. Please try BETAINE HCL which you can get from nutrition places. Hope this helps. It helps me and my pain went away after 2 days.

Jun 08, 2014
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FOR THE AGONIZING PAIN, DON...
by: Anonymous

DON, I PRAY FOR YOU TO FEEL BETTER AND PLEASE KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE, THERE ARE ALOT OF US WITH THAT ABDOMINAL PAINS,(MINE IS IN MY VERY LOWER LEFT SIDE AND LEFT LOWER BACK) AND REMEMBER YOU ARE WORTH CARING FOR...GOD WILL BE WITH YOU AND WILL FIND A WAY FOR YOU TO GO TO A HOSPITAL OR A DOCTOR, THAT WON'T CHARGE YOU...ALSO MAYBE YOU CAN TRY A GOVERMENT HOSPITAL THAT TAKES PEOPLE THAT HAVE NO INSURANCE, PLEASE FIND OUT AND DONT LOOSE THE FAITH, THINK POSSITIVE YOUR PAIN WILL BE GONE AND YOU ARE GOING TO FEEL GOOD AGAIN...IN GOD'S NAME!! KEEP ON PRAYING AND YOU WILL SEE MIRACLES...BEST OF LUCK TO YOU MY DEAR!

Feb 23, 2014
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left side sever pain for over a year
by: Anonymous

I am in the same position as you are, and i have had all the tests done, colonoscopie, blood test ect. And finally the doctor suggested i see a dietition because i would be having intolerance to gluten, anything fat i eat the pain goes up, ex: bread, milk, fries, cheese, wheat , celery, brocoli, anything as salads,red meat. check out Gluten on the net it should help.

Aug 30, 2013
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I had diverticulitis, then got c-diff in the hospital.
by: Anonymous

I feel your pain. It took five years of the most invasive procedures u can imagine. Then my pain came to a crisis which required emergency surgery, the removal of my sygmoid colon and an ileostomy for 7 months. Then a second surgery to reconnect me.
Don't give up hope.. I ran the gambit and I survived.
In the 5 years of suffering I went to work with a breakfast of ibuprofen. I'd come home and go strait to bed. Weekends were spent in bed with a heating pad. Gave myself 3rd degree burns.

I still have pains but nothing like before.

To the person that suggested Vicodin. If it is an intestinal issue Vicodin is an opiate which constipates.
Treating just the pain does not fix the problem.

May 25, 2013
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Hello!:)
by: Anonymous

Hi I wanted to let you know that you are not alone you are in my prayers and wanted to share my mothers story with you, she went through the worst pains of her life for two years doctors never believed her said it was all in her head she couldn't hold down any food and was always in bed for those two years it wasn't until we switched insurance company's from kaiser to blue shield that we found out all of her back pain and abdominal pain was caused by a cancer growing in her colon . Today after being in remission for several years she still has side effects from the pain and now other body pains. I myself have endometriosis a form of excruciating abdominal pain caused by my period. My mother takes Vicodin and Ahmad been taking Vicodin for the past years and to this day she has continuous pain that doctors now are not able to find what the problem is however the Vicodin is making it easier on her she is able to do daily activities. So although I am not a doctor I can recommend you try and get a doctor to prescribe you Vicodin if at least they can't find the root of your pain. I promise it will help you out greatly. I will continue to keep you in prayers and hope that you are able to get the medical attention you deserve . God bless

May 25, 2013
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Hello!:)
by: Anonymous

Hi I wanted to let you know that you are not alone you are in my prayers and wanted to share my mothers story with you, she went through the worst pains of her life for two years doctors never believed her said it was all in her head she couldn't hold down any food and was always in bed for those two years it wasn't until we switched insurance company's from kaiser to blue shield that we found out all of her back pain and abdominal pain was caused by a cancer growing in her colon . Today after being in remission for several years she still has side effects from the pain and now other body pains. I myself have endometriosis a form of excruciating abdominal pain caused by my period. My mother takes Vicodin and Ahmad been taking Vicodin for the past years and to this day she has continuous pain that doctors now are not able to find what the problem is however the Vicodin is making it easier on her she is able to do daily activities. So although I am not a doctor I can recommend you try and get a doctor to prescribe you Vicodin if at least they can't find the root of your pain. I promise it will help you out greatly. I will continue to keep you in prayers and hope that you are able to get the medical attention you deserve . God bless

Dec 14, 2012
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Hi there
by: Anonymous

I prayed for you all, i had the same problem with abd pain for about 8 months, at first they acted like it was in my head and treated me like that, then they finally found out that it was c-diff and h-pylori togeather at he same time, they treated me first with reg antiboitics, but it only worked for a few days...then they put me on super antiboitics and i have been pain free for about 6 months now...i pray that God thru Jesus Christ our glorious savior and by His Holy Spirit will help you like he did me, in Jesus holy name amen.

Nov 25, 2012
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I feel your pain
by: Sheryln

I'm in the same boat as you. Abdominal pain for over a year now. Doctors say they don't know what is wrong with me, and one thinks i'm just making it all up. Pain has moved into my left thigh and lower back as well now. Doctor said for me to get a colonoscopy and exploratory surgery, but there is no way I can afford that. Can't even afford to go to my regular doctor anymore. They have a program a town over from me, at a hospital called Shands where if you qualify they will pay for all of your Dr's visits, surgeries, etc. You just have to go to there doctor's. Maybe they have something like that where you live, and you can finally figure out what is wrong with you. (I'm still on the waiting list) Hope things get better for you, and good luck.

Oct 02, 2012
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so sorry
by: Anonymous

Dan,
I am so sorry that you are going through this.. My daughter had a similar type scenario with gastro pain and a dr telling her it was all in her head. We found another who said it was a parasite, which he treated and it got somewhat better, but by this time her pain had triggered other things (like lactose intolerance, but more importantly like you, depression, social fears, some paranoia about going out..) Very long story short, after she had a near nervous breakdown away at college (due to the gastro pain and the fear of going out)-it made us finally stop and see her daily pain.. We took her out and got her to a psychiatrist..and admittedly/gratefully, we have good insurance. She was put on anti-anxiety medicine (like Paxil,) and after time and adjustments, she has a new life. (But we did see a change in about a week!) The pain is not completely gone, but is more like a discomfort, but the biggest part is that she is not afraid to go out anymore. (Actually similar story for my husband..undiagnosed pain, Paxil, no pain!) Any way financially to get to a psychiatrist? I have heard about several others that this made a huge difference. I hope you can find help..Again, so sorry and know that you were prayed for today..
Maggie

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